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Benjamin's Birthday...

Benjamin's Birthday...
Do I look "cute"?

Sitting up all by myself...

Sitting up all by myself...
See my proud face....

The Day I'm known as Xavier Matthias

The Day I'm known as Xavier Matthias
Father Lau praised me for not crying..I'm a brave boy...

Chloe....and Me....

Chloe....and Me....
Dun be scare of me...I'm a nice boy you know...

Friday, December 5, 2008

Xavier on the flyer...


6th December 2008


Wanted to upload these photos long ago but was tied down with work...so to Xavier's supporters....so sorry....here's few of his latest photographs...


We brought Xavier on a family outing probably a month ago to Great World City and then to the SIngapore Flyer....Guess Xavier was so excited by the trip that he simply refused to sleep and despite him rubbing his sleepy eyes, he struggled to stay awake throughout the whole trip...


When Joyce (the lady in the photo) met Xavier, she could not stop carrying him and even requested for us to bring him over for her to take care as and when we are busy....haha.....


He was so quiet on the Flyer with his eyes looking around the surrounding.....guess the scenery was just too much for him...ha.....and the moment we got back into the car, he finally dozed off...


When we got home, he woke up and could not stop blabbering.....more like he was sharing what he saw earlier that day.....

Lazy Xavier


5th December 2008


Guess what....I realised that my dear Xavier is simply too lazy to flip himself over....or maybe...his body is too heavy for him to manage?? Each time we flip him over, he will laugh as we cheer him on...but getting him to flip by himself by tilting him sideway, he will get upset and starts crying....sigh...i guess I just have to be contented with him looking adorable and missing the milestone of flipping...


This holidays has allowed me to spend a lot of time with Xavier and each morning as he wakes up and smiles at me, makes me feel that all the weight gain and morning sickness and delivery pain has been worth it....


Thursday, November 27, 2008

Finally..bonding time...


28th Nov 2008

Xavier is 5 months old now....and yah..receiving lots and lots of feedback that I've not updated the blog for a long time...yah...true....work never seemed ending..with long meetings ending till 8pm ever since I come back to work..


I'm so glad that the school holidays are here and it is time for me to spend more time with Xavier before he forgets me...


Ok..to all Xavier's supporters...here's his photos....

Thursday, September 18, 2008

A Day with Daddy

18th September 2008

Yesterday was I think...the first time Daddy John spent a whole day with Xavier on his own. And whenI got home, John was beaming from ear to ear, happy about the day spent with his bao bei. I think my baby really loves having people around...when we left him in the room all by himself to do our own work, he started crying for attention...Sigh...guess I have to train him to be independent so that John and I can bring our work home...otherwise..it seems almost impossible for us to do our work at home...

One thing I discovered, my boy is really timid.....John sneezed very loudly yesterday and Xavier started crying loudly....it took me some time to pacify him...Sigh.....next time sure get bullied by girls....

Sunday, September 14, 2008

My Baby of Steel


15th Sept 2008

Week 2 of returning to work....yet my heart is at home with Xavier...worried that John will not be able to handle him...as he has to bathe him and feed him before sending him over to Mum's place...will Xavier be able to keep quiet in his cat seat until he reaches mum's place?

Anyway, Xavier's head is 90% steady already....we can simply carry him propping him upright and he enjoys it...When we went to the airport on Saturday, I carried him with his head against my shoulder...and guess what, my dear son, used to his pacifier, started sucking his own hands....aiyoh...no wonder now his hands always smell of saliva...

Xavier Xavier....Da Yi bought you a superman romper from Australia and you know something, you look real adorable in it....I guess this is the only time to dress you up in these super heroes's suit..before you grow any older...mummy will not embarass you ok?

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Going back to work

4th Sept 2008
Sigh...I'm going back to work next Monday and John will be away in China....I wonder if I can cope at night without John around. Although Mum will be helping me, I don't really feel comfortable disturbing her beautiful sleep as well. So I guess I'll just have to bear with the sleepless night till John is back.

Xavier is growing real fast. John weighed him yesterday and guess what..my dear boy needs a "M" size diaper already..he is 7kg already...no wonder I've been feeling the strain whenever I carry him and now, can't really carry him for long...

Last night at home, John prop him up against the corner of the sofa and guess what, my baby Xavier sat up all by himself without having us supporting him. Xavier seemed to be very proud of his achievement and started laughing. But I was more concerned whether this will affect his backbone....dun want him to be a hunchback in future.... Will try to upload a pic of Xavier sitting up all by himself in the next few days...

Monday, August 25, 2008

Xavier is 2 month old..


25th August 2008
Xavier is 2 month old and he is getting impatient with his own development. He tries to sit up everytime we carry him and in the event we try to make him lay in own arms, he will cry and only stop when we sit him up in our arms.


I have also started reading to him and guess what I am reading to him? I am reading the newspaper to him and hopefully, he will have a very strong foundation in his vocabulary as he grows up.

Everyone is the family says he looks like "Xiao Xin" with his chubby cheeks. Must be because John watches too much of that cartoon when I was pregnant. But on the other hand, I think my son looks pretty than handsome. Imagine him wearing earrings..wow..he will be a 'sui char bor'....OMG!!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Xavier is going to be 2 month old in 2 days time.

21st August 2008

Before I go into details about Xavier...I guess there's something else I have to write about..I would like to say a big thank you to those who have been following this blog meant for Xavier and for those who have been following my other blog on a mother's voice...for some reason, I apologise but I will have to keep that blog confidential from now on....

Ok...back to the topic...when baby is born, they are not able to see anything for some time. And now, I think Xavier is able to see slightly already. He is a very curious baby and each time we carry him, he always struggles and wants to sit up. And also, in the process, he will keep turning his head to where the light source is coming from.

So mothers to be....this is the time for you to develop your child to the fullest. I bought him a rattle..one that has many colours..so as to stimulate his brain and also, switch on the animal planet for him to watch. As he is watching, I will tell him about the animals that is being shown and the sound made by that animal, etc. I am also singing to him now...so that he will recognise my voice, etc. I have also stopped giving him his mitten..so that he can touch with his bare fingers..all to stimulate his brain..

I realise one thing about my son...he does not like to wear shorts/pants and he likes to be bare..haha..each time we remove his shorts/pants to change his diaper..he will start to smile/laugh. When he was just born, removing his clothing for bathing is a torture as he will cry non-stop...but now..he is enjoying his bath so much that he does not want to get out of the water. Just tell him..."Xavier...bong bong lor..." and he will start smiling...

Monday, August 18, 2008

Baby Power...

18th August 2008

Yesterday was a night of horrr for both me and John when Baby Xavier showed us his baby power....he wanted to let us know that he is in charge....
Ha...guess what happen...John saw a hugh piece of pi sai in Xavier's nostril and we were both so enthusiatic about getting it out. Although we knew that we have a baby tweezer at home, we could not wait to lay our finger on that irritating piece of pi sai...the rest of the story...no prize for guessing it right..

Before we could do anything..Xavier seemed to be able to detect an attack on our part..gave a loud scream and started crying non-stop..till his face was all red...no amount of hushing and carrying would help....hearing his cries made our heart melt and at that very instant, we really regretted what we have earlier planned to do....

Last night..we did not sleep well for Xavier kept waking up...perhaps to punish us..haha...what baby power he has...

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Choosing a Pediatrician

5th August 2008

Today asked my gynae to recommend a pd for Xavier...Mmm...as usual, I know I can count on him..and he recommended 2 who is very very senior in KK...(The nurses told me so.) and the 2 are supposedly the better if not the best...Of course when you want the best, it comes with a price as well....$80 per visit....If i am to bring Xavier to a pd outside, per visit probably cost just about $50...but well..as long as they are good and they are the experts, I do not mind paying extra...

So Son...Mummy is spending so much on you now...I don't expect you to pay me back next time when you grow up but all mummy wish is that you will grow up healthily and to be a responsible and aspiring person.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Xavier is 37 days old now...

31st July 2008

Today, Ziona and Yvonne visited Xavier and once again, brought gifts for him...Xavier...my dear son..when you have learned to talk, you must remember to thank them, including Auntie Janet and Auntie Sheree for all the gifts ok....

I think Xavier is a very lucky boy...becos since birth, he has been receiving lots of gifts from people around him and today, his Ka Ka Yee also brought him a automated rocking cradle..though it is a pass down from Ka Ka Yee's sister-in-law, it looks brand new and just now tried putting Xavier in it and he seems to enjoy it. Oh dear..what if he refused to sleep in his cot in future, how?

But thank god that when brother bought the cot, it can be dismantled and be fixed into a bed. Xavier will be able to sleep in it when he is about 3 years of age.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Story of Baby Even

30th July 2008

Was surfing the web, hoping to find more information on immunisation for Xavier. He has been feeling rather grouchy for that past 2 days and he is not sleeping enough. His BCG jab has finally 'erupted with a little pus' and I guess this is uncomfortable for him. But there's nothing I can do for him as the nurse from KK already told me that pus will appear from the injection point. I will just have to keep it clean and to let it dry up by itself.

From my intense surfing, chance upon a website that tells of the story of a baby named Even from Taiwan. It is very sad to learn that Baby Even is born with heart problem and she has left this word at the age of 8 month old. After reading the diary of her mother (with my limited chinese), my heart went all out for the mother. And this has also made me more thankful that God has blessed me with Xavier, a healthy baby although I was not eating enough nutritious food during my pregnancy for fear of putting on too much weight.

Anyway who happen to see this website, you can read the story of Baby Even at
http://www.babyhome.com.tw/album.php?mid=74940
I am very sure you will feel equally sad as well....

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Hepatitis B Jab Number 2

24th July 2008

Xavier went for his hep B jab today. Once again, I did not enter the room for fear of hearing his cries. Went in after his jab and there he was, crying loudly. John and I had to pacify him for quite a while until he stopped. After going home, Xavier was lethargic for the whole afternoon and my father had to carrying for almost the whole afternoon until her finally dozed off. Think the jab really affected him a bit. Now I'm getting worried cos it was said that the rest of the immunisation will caused fever and that will make Xavier feel worse.

How I wish that he can grow up faster so that he will be able to face the immunisation better than being injected unknowingly.

Anyway...Xavier is now 4.4kg and 53cm in length...No wonder for the past few days when I was feeding him, I felt that strain on my arm. But this is cause for celebration. I remembered when he was born, he was smaller than expected and he seemed to be so tiny. Most important of all, he was not feeding well, drinking only 20 to 30ml each time(including those amount that he will spit out each time). Now, he is drinking 120ml each time and sometimes, still not enough for him. Haha.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Baby Shower

21st July 2008

Yesterday was Xavier's baby shower...after some rough calculation, some 100 guests turned up for it. For a while, we are kind of worried that the buffet catered will not be enough.But all thanks to Xavier's grandfather, his friend who owned the catering business provided us with a buffet spread enough for 130 people. As for the cost, it is based on friendship price..so I am not going to reveal it here.

We had a tiring day, with having to deliver the cakes to friends and having to do the setting up of the location. John's head almost burst (according to him) but we were glad that the whole event was a success.

Here, we would like to thank all the relatives and friends for all the gifts they have given to Xavier and please do rest assured that all gifts will be kept properly and safely for Xavier till he is of age to use them.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Baby Shower




18th July 2008

It will be Xavier's baby shower in 2 days time and we are expecting more than 100 guests....wondering if we are being too extravagant for a one month old baby...but I'm excited about what the guests will say about the gifts we have prepared for them..especially the box from culture joy.

Here's a picture of the gifts we prepared for our guests.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Xavier's Development

15th July 2008

It's been a few days since my last entry and for the past few days, I've sort of understand Xavier's behaviour and trying my best to be a good mother to him. Just measured him. He is now 48cm in length and his head circumference is 35cm.

And from today onwards, I'm going to speak to Xavier as if he understands what I am talking about...hopefully this will help him in his learning ability in future..I know I am a bit Kaisu..but what to do..in today's society, if we are not kaisu, the child will lose out in future....

I don't need him to be anyone great in future but he must be at least able to support himself in future....be a doctor maybe??

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

3 cheers for Xavier..

10th July 2008

Today's mark the end of all blood test for jaundice for my dear Xavier....According to the doctor...his jaundice level has gone down to 51 and is officially discharged from the test...Isn't this a good news?

For the first time today also, Xavier cried very very loudly during the extraction of his blood. Usually he will let out a soft squirm before going back to sleep. But today, he cried till his face turned red. John said he was probably affected by the other baby who was crying very very loudly, thus affected the mood of our Xavier..

Anyway, it is a good thing that he no longer has jaundice and also, the next visit to the polyclinic is for his hepatitis B jab. However, I'm considering switching him to a pediatrician as the waiting time at polyclinic is really very long.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Preparing for Baby Shower...

8th July 2008

Xavier's baby shower is coming a slightly more than a week time and I am so busy with the preparation...Haha...for a moment...preparing the guest lists made me feel like I was preparing for my wedding 3 years ago.

I've already placed order for thank you gift from sweetchocolate for my colleagues in school and for jon's colleagues as well. Now I'm contemplating if I should order more for all the guests who are turning up for the baby shower...and that will mean more money to be spent....Better cosider if it is necessary.

Yesterday, John and I went to the town council to book the pavilion for the baby shower and was glad that booking was available. Hotel...Too expensive..Home..Too messy...so the pavilion is the best choice..children will be able to run wild in the open space.

Dad has already helped me to booked the buffet for the event and I trust him to order good food for the guests. Afterall, the buffet he ordered for my wedding lunch was fantastic and the guests loved them.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Mummy and Xavier


7th July 2008
This is one of the first decent photo I have with Xavier. Took a few at the hopsital when I just gave birth but those were really hideous. Although John said that which woman will look prim and proper immediately after delivery, I was still not convinced enough to upload any photo that I have taken with Xavier. This is not the best of course as I am still in the process of losing weight. Today is the first session of my post-natal massage and there are more to come. I hope after the whole session, I can at least look more decent and to take proper photographs. Most important of all, I want to look decent for the baby shower.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Visit from Sister Eunice


6th July 2008


Today, Uncle Joseph, Auntie Constance and Sister Eunice visited Xavier. Eunice was so excited about carrying Xavier and although she was a bit reluctant at first, after a first attempt, she got the hang of it and wanted to carry Xavier again and again. Mommy Gena and Daddy John are very happy that Eunice is so excited and concerned over this cousin of hers and we are very sure that Eunice will be a very good sister to Xavier. We know Eunice will also be a very good role model to Xavier as he grows up.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Cause for Celebration


3rd July 2008

Hooray! Xavier's jaundice level has gone down to 160 range, lower than the 231 measured last Monday. Finally, his polyclinic visit has been lengthen to once a week, instead of once every 3 days. I was quite worried at first, after reading so much about baby boy having higher level of Jaundice as compared to girls. I cannot imagine having to ward Xavier into hospital and watching him exposed under that whatever light. If that ever happen, it will break my heart.

Midnight Awakening...

2nd July 2008

Daddy John has been waking up in the middle of the night to feed Xavier for the past 2 nights and we realised that Xavier must be fully fed in order to ensure that he doesn't wake up within the next hour. But this means we need to prepare more milk and to be prepared for wastage. My dear son....Mummy really wish sometime that you can grow up the very next day and to be able to run about by yourself. But it is ok.All Mummy really want now is for you to feed healthily and to grow up strong and fit so that you can wrestle with daddy when you grow up ok??

Yesterday Daddy John bought two bottles of wine and sent it to the hospital for Nurse Song and Dr John Tee. Nurse Song was not on duty and we did not manage to thank her in person but we managed to pass the wine personally to Dr Tee and to expressed our thanks to him. After that, we went to Novena Church and to give an offering of thanks to God for the wonderful gift he has given to both me and John.

Monday, June 30, 2008

It's not easy being a parent..




1st July 2008




2 days ago, Xavier suffered from severe colic and that made John and myself sleepless. We got up at every moment just to ensure that Xavier was alright. Now, John and I tried to get up on an alternate basis to feed him and to change his diaper. I was rather worried about John not getting enough sleep and having to drive and work the next day. But he convinced me that the thought of Xavier waiting for him at home makes him alert and careful during driving.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

A Note of Thanks...

30th June 2008

Xavier is now 7 days old and all these while, I just felt that something was lacking. Then it just struck me that I needed to thank some of the people who have helped me in one way of another during my pregnancy and delivery.

First and foremost, I want Xavier to remember Dr John Tee CS of KKH who had delivered him. Before going to Dr Tee, I actually changed 2 gynecologists before May recommended him. All my fear of my first pregnancy was reassured after seeing him for the first time and although John feels he looks more like a construction worker than a doctor. Ha Ha. Dr. Tee was also very confident of what he was doing and he even told me I was going to deliver at about 4 o'clock. I even challenged him saying that I may delivered at 6. He delivered Xavier at 4.56pm. I've hear stories about gyne not delivering baby for you, leaving the job to the midwife. But on the day of delivery, I have 2 Johns by my side; my husband John and Dr John Tee. Thus, a hundred and thousand of thanks to Dr. John Tee and should anyone read this blog and is pregnant, you can consider making him your doctor. He's superb!

Secondly, Xavier, you must remember Snr Staff Nurse Song Lee Gek. Throughout the whole process, she has made my contraction painless and tried to encourage me throughout the whole process. She made small talk with me, trying to take my mind off the pain and checking on me every few minutes, ensuring that I was doing good. When I asked for more epidural, one of the nurses who came in told me that they may not give as I might be delivering an any moment. But Nurse Song told me "No problem. I don't want you to feel any pain when you are being stitched up!" She was right, I felt nothing at all. Thank you so much.

Xavier, you must also thank your Daddy John for being by my side when you were being born despite him afraid of blood. He stood by me, assisted in the delivery and got his arm covered with blood.But he did not backed off and instead, kept encouraging me, giving me the strength to push.

Friday, June 27, 2008

Night of Helplessness

28th June 2008

Last night, Xavier cried till about 2.30am, leaving me and John very helpless. We did not know what to do as we have already fed him and changed his diaper. But he just would not stop crying. At one moment, we were even contemplating bringing him down to KK to see a doctor. Thank God, he finally stopped crying at about 2.30am after another feed. But throughout the whole night, I became very sensitive to his every slight movement and woke up at every moment to check on him. But Xavier finally slept through the night and woke up only at 7.30am the next day.

Shower of blessing with.......Shit

27th June 2008
Janet and Serene always share about how baby will splatter you with their urine and shit and I always laugh it off..thinking that the tiny baby cannot be that almighty. But today, I finally experienced it.

I was changing diaper for Xavier. Just when I thought I was near completion, my dear son gave me a surprise gift by having his shit shooting high up into the air....I'm serious...it's really high up into the air. My immediate reaction was to put down his legs and screamed for help....Luckily...my son was not terrified by my scream. He was just staring in the air, innocently.

Lesson learnt: Covered his lower part of the body when changing diaper and don't remove the soiled diaper immediately. He may not have finish his business yet. Give him some time.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Confinement rules...and more...

27th June 2008

For once, I was glad that I did not engaged any confinement lady as it will definitely be a waste of money. There seems to be endless rules for a new mother to abide by. Must eat food laced with ginger....food cooked with wine.....eat liver and kidney(NO WAY!!)....no showering....etc etc etc....and I followed NONE of them....But there were moments when I wished I have additional help as I do not wish to tire my mum out too much...especially someone to help Xavier bathe. He still hates bathing and hearing him crying his lungs out hurt me so much. I thought babies are supposed to love water..since they were living in a bag of water for practically 10 months...or did I use the wrong technique and made him uncomfortable?

Tried breastfeeding again but again was rendered unsucessful John suggested that I signed up for the post-nantal class tomorrow at the polyclinic when we bring Xavier for his second jaundice check up..Maybe I should just give it a try.

Wedding Anniversary


26th June 2008


It is a very important day today.....it is our wedding anniversary....was expecting Xavier to be born today but he came a few days earlier....what a wonderful gift God has given to John and me.....


For the first time in my life, I bathe a baby and Xavier was wriggling in my fingers and hands. I was so worried that I might dropped him and thank God, with Mum's supervision, I managed to bathe him...of course with him "training his lungs" at the same time....


The amount of milk he is consuming increased today by 10 to 20 ml today and I am really glad about it. Tried to breastfed him also...though I was not very successful, I am not going to give up...thinking of all the benefit breastmilk will do for him....Wish me luck ok...

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Xavier and his first Polyclinic Visit

25th June 2008
Xavier visited the polyclinic for his first routine check up for jaundice. Hearing him cry made me tear as well. My heart really melted when I imagined how the nurse was going to prick his tiny sole. I refused to enter the room and Daddy John had to bring him in on my behalf. When he came out from the room, I held him tightly, trying to soothe him from the pain and to stop the crying. At the moment, how I wish I could take all the immunisations on his behalf. Next month, he must take his second jab of Hepatitis B. My poor son.....

Xavier--My Pride and Joy...

October 2007, I realised I was pregnant....without much excitement....rather...with fear. I did not know what to expect and surprisingly, I was more concerned about my work and about how it would be affected. But on 23rd June 2008, at 1656hrs, I delivered Xavier after 8 hours of labour 'pain' with the help of epidural, I thank God for bringing Xavier to my life.